Dreaming life.

I've gotten into the habit of remembering my dreams;my sub-conscious thoughts of my awkward mind. What else to do with a remembered dream than look it up on the internet.

Over the past few nights i've had some pretty strange dreams and on a whim looked them up.
I've found that my dreams are telling me things that i'm thinking, perhaps in different, mutant forms but it's getting there.

In a way this has made me feel better, It's added a certain amount of certainty into my life. Once again i believe that everything i've been through and whatever gets thrown at me in the future, its all part of the ride, it was all meant to happen.

Now i know, that you've hurt me because i've let you hurt me. I've realized there's no better reason for it than there is something better out there for me.

And because what i want is taking too long, I'm distressed. But for now, i'm going to slow down, relax. Even i dont understand why i'm in such a rush to commit myself to something that won't last longer than a few months.

It took me two times to make the same mistake, but it'll never happen again, i promise heart.